A female persona?

2009-04-25T15:06:00.001-07:00

Well i have to admit this is rather heavy for a 1st post but, what comes to mind comes to mind right? Then again a second look at it, it seemed appropriate as a 1st post as it tells a little about myself. I wonder if this is only unique to myself but there are certain times where i feel that i sometimes have preference that are uncharacteristic of my normal self. Base on thought and listing it seems this part of me appears to be feminine in nature, hence the name of this entry. Well i hate to make it wordy so I'll just list down for easier reading. And for the sake of this post alone i will refer to that female persona as "her" and "she"

Well normally i enjoy the peace and serenity of being alone with a good book or my computer, she hates being alone.
While i enjoy playing computer games and sometimes the occasional outdoor sports, she enjoys creative writing and drawing/painting.
I can be considered a pyro, I enjoy playing with fireworks, burning things, she on the other hand hates fireworks and is terrified of them.
My main preference in taste is towards salty and bitter food(as a kid i was often told that my hair might drop out from putting too much soy sauce in my fried eggs) and an anti-sweet tooth, whilst she likes sweet and sour food. Unfortunately for her several foods that fit into this category such as ice-cream and fruits have to be ruled out due to sensitive teeth.(Whether you like it or not you still feel pain >_<)
She likes to oogle at good looking guys, my preference however is towards girls.(Uh...do i have to prove this to the readers >_>)
She's uncomfortable with the guys stuff i do (don't ask me what guys stuff is...if you don't know then you shouldn't know, if you do know then well...)
She is extremely emotional, while i remain largely emotionless
She enjoys talking to girls since they have so much in common, I'd rather trash talk or troll some random stranger.
She's nervous in front of others, I rarely hesitate to talk crap in front of strangers.
She's very meticulous about looks, while i just put on whatever is clean.(or looks clean)
She's very inquisitive about her surroundings wanting to know more about everything around her, I on the other hand can't be bothered at all most of the time.
She can be said to be obsessive compulsive, obsessed with cleanliness, how orderly things are, the arrangement/organization of things/objects.As for me refer to #11.

A few possibilities to explain this dual personality is:
If its unique to me perhaps i have schizophrenia O_O
Perhaps its a hidden or surpressed self of mine that hides itself as it doesn't comply with the social norms of my surroundings or who I want to be.
Another possible explanation would be that before the sexual maturation of a human body the chromosome determining the male female gender and what makes either different remains dormant allowing an ambiguity of choices and decisions and those memories of ambiguity continue existing in your subconscious affecting your personality and decisions.
Well if you do read this do post some comments. Anything is welcomed even if its a simple "Hi, just dropping by."

1st entry

2009-04-25T15:02:00.000-07:00

Well i've been wanting to blog for sometime now, be it my weird observations of life or the rare wonders that i felt i shouldn't keep to myself. Although i have commented on a number of blogs or spoken to people about their blogs i have yet to own one. So without further ado here is my grand opening of my blog.

A Life To Ponder

A female persona?

1st entry